30 Day Blog Challenge Day 22: How Have You Changed The Past 2 Years
Day 22: How have you changed the past 2 years?
Ok, past two years so that’s from October 2014 to present.
As I mentioned here, I was alive but I was not really living after my mom’s death. She was everyone’s anchor in the family, not only for us siblings but also for her own siblings too. We lost her in July 2013. This loss was even magnified because of the new responsibilities I had to face. And so, more than a year later, I haven’t really moved on and I just continued to wallow in sadness.
However, I knew then that I need to do something about it. Her time with us was up. She won’t be coming back to our lives anymore.
Backtrack a bit. On September 2014, I went for a personal retreat at Cenacle Sisters in Quezon City. While I knew that my feelings, concerns and attitudes that time were correct given the situation, it was good to hear it from another person that I am indeed just doing what needs to be done. I was able to really pray harder, evaluate my current situation, made letters to my sister and friends, especially to one of my closest friends who I had a falling out with because of my own doing. While not all letters reached the recipients, that was really a good exercise to unload all my thoughts and feelings.
I came out of that retreat more hopeful and thankful. Of course it wasn’t an overnight thing but I guess that started my healing process. I was in this state when we lost our father in January 2015, and while it was another painful experience, it became bearable at that time.
Thank you, Lord.