While I am excited for 2018, I am also afraid of a lot of things right now, especially on the decisions I need to make on the coming months. There will be a lot of changes. What I fear the most is that I won’t be able to find the work opportunity similar or at least close to what I have now. I dread this the most because how will I be able to start a family if work opportunities back home are scarce? Let’s face it. Building a family, no matter how frugal you are, will still require a certain income to meet the basic needs of a family. But still I really want to raise that family, by God’s grace, in my hometown.
Today’s gospel is when Jesus visited the disciples who locked themselves in a room for fear of the Jews. In that visit, He said peace be with you.
This is the Lord saying that we should not be afraid because He will always be in control. When the priest mentioned this, I was a little pacified. I just prayed fervently for the Lord to guide us in all decisions we’ll do as these will all be crucial for our future. And I am lifting it all to Him to take control.
Sigh. Adulting is hard sometimes.