Dear Mama and Daddy,
I miss you both more these days. I don’t know why. Maybe because I have a lot of questions about some major decisions that I’ve been contemplating on lately. Maybe, I need your guidance about life. You always did that when you were still here. If I remember correctly, I consulted you with all the major decisions I made before. Yeah, maybe that’s why I miss you more lately as compared to other days. It’s tough being an adult. I don’t know how you managed it during your time, with all the challenges in raising 6 kids. But don’t worry. This is just me rambling incoherently amidst all the uncertainties and “noise” going through in my thought bubble right now. I know that eventually, I’ll get to clearly see God’s plans that will unfold before me in, His perfect time. I’ve proven this so many times in the past.
Happy Mother’s Day, Mama. I am glad that I am home this weekend and that I was able to visit you. Thank you for always being our angel. I love you forever. Hi to Daddy.
Btw, Uncle Pat has already been called back by Papa God too. Were you one of his welcoming party? Hehe. I called auntie and she was so sad, and she even cried a little. I wish I could be with her too but it isn’t that easy and fast. I can’t fly. Anyway, please watch over her too. I hope she doesn’t become so sad and stop taking care of herself. I’ll try to call her more often too.
Happy birthday in heaven, Mama. If you were still here, it would have been your 68th. And since it is a weekday, perhaps, I’m home bound this weekend to celebrate yours and bunso’s birthday together. Kaso wala ka na hehe. Ikakain na lang din kita hehehe.
I miss you and Daddy. Hi na lang din sa kanya. Sabihin mo ha, at baka magtampo na naman yun hehe.
Happy birthday in heaven, Daddy! If you were still here, it would have been your 78th. Parang ang weird din na binabati pa rin kita ng happy birthday, no? Hehe. Pero weird or not, babatihin pa rin kita. Ikinain na rin kita ng Japanese cheesecake kanina. At kagabi rin, kumain din kami ni Glo para i-celebrate ang birthdays natin. Since wala ka na, ako na lang kakain para sa ‘yo hahaha! Lamon pa more.
If you are still here, party party sana sa bahay, malamang sa Easter Sunday no? Pero pwede rin namang kami-kami lang hehe. Kayo kasi eh, nang-iwan agad. Pero malaman pa hehe.
Happy birthday uli! I miss you and Mama. Hi na lang sa kanya. Ibagam ah ta baka umapos manen hehe.
The other weekend, the BF mentioned you again out of the blue. He told me (again) that you used to go to the office and share stories with him, and that you always mentioned about having a daughter who’s still single hahaha. Nakakaloka talaga. At tingin daw nya, love mo raw sya, yung tipong pag magbibigay ka raw ng cake, mas malaki pa ibibigay mo sa kanya kesa sa akin na anak mo hahaha. Ang yabang no? Buti di ko nabatukan. Kaya rin daw sobra syang nalungkot nung biglang nawala ka. Sayang daw. At for sometime daw, di talaga nya kayang matulog sa office at lagi daw bukas ang ilaw kasi naalala pa rin nya yung pagkukuwentuhan nyo, este yung pagkukuwento mo while sitting at the visitor’s chair and sya naman, tuloy lang sa trabaho.
While it makes me sad that you are no longer around to ask about it, I’m also happy that he has those memories of you. Sana lang nga talaga, you had more time to spend together. But well, such is life. You had to go ahead. So my request Mama, is that for you to please be our guardian angel and guide us and our relationship.